悲しい、Traurig

読んだ話が書きたいです。日本人は仕事のためにヨーロッパに行きました、ヨーロッパ人のたいどはとても違うからかれは一ヶ月後病気になりました。今私も病気になったと思います。
日本ではたてまえとほんねすごく大切なことですよね、ただ私はたてまえとほんね分からないから、すぐこ混乱していました。だれにしんようしますか？だれにしんようしないのほうがいいんですか？分からない。。。
だれ本当の友達ですか？だれ本当の友達じゃない？分からない。。
ドイツに帰りたいです。。ドイツでは皆笑ってたてまえとほんねがない、友達は友達です、ドイツでもかんけいが難しいけど、皆だいてい、たぶんいつも、ほんねです。

There is a story I want to tell, once I read there was a Japanese who went to Europe for work, and after nearly one month he got bonkers.. He became ill because Europeans are so different from Japanese.. I think the same thing happened to me yesterday!
In Japan you really don't know who likes you and who don't people you thought were your friends weren't and people who were nice were in reality not.
There is the concept of Tatemae and Honne which means something like Not showing your real feelings and showing your real feelings, the deeper I get into the culture the more I'm frustrated.. You never know what is what.. And that makes me nervous, stressed and ill.
surely and fairly enough I speak only for myself, but becoming more and more Japanese means giving up more and more of yourself, being more in a special mind flow, were the other is treated very carefully and doing what the others do. Not really a good transition after one month here.. The poor Japanese guy did for sure suffer very much in Europe..